Morning:

LBRP

but I need to physically clean my temple space. Too much sorcery and having to run to different parts of the country.

Lunch:

Walking Meditation, 1 hour walk. This was a good few mile walk.

My walking meditation consists of the following steps.

First, I slow my breathing down as slow as possible. Start walking with head phones ( I prefer non-word techno music, trance orientated stuff).

Start the Macrocosmic orbit while walking. Each breath in and out one cycle. ( I can explain this in detail if someone wants).

Did A New Orleans Ancestor Service

Called Legba of course to open the door

Ogun to slash away any additional barriers to the spirit world

and then Baron Samehdi to open up for the ancestors

It was a very beautiful service, multiple pocessions, very very strong.

I am in a state of shock over the death of my friend. I have to do a Ancestor service on Sunday for Pagan Pride. I imagine that will be hard.

I will need to do a dedicated bunch of work, but this, this one is a bit hard to deal with. Really hard. If I could get a break, I would take it I think. I think I need to be on a beach for a while drinking mostly. Nothing in the world, nothing, is harder then being the psychopomp, the stand in for death .... for a beloved friend.

As of 12:45 today, I was honored to be the psychopomp and shaman for my surrogate sister and friend.

Mellisa Delia has passed through to the waters, after a long fight against cancer.

May God, the Lwa and the Ancesters bless the living in our hard times of now.

So I have been doing 2 days of magical work to try to keep a friend alive. I have done what I can do. I am tired, beat up and generally, cant do anything more. I have done the best I could, with multiple techniques, and I have to let the magic work.

Nothing more can be said, ultimately she has to choose to live. If she does, shell find theres lots of energy to support that decision.

Morning: Nada, sucking at the morning I am

Lunch:

LBRP broken into parts. 20 minutes of high intensity Reiki work sealed and ended by a Kabbalistic cross.

15 minutes or So of Tai chi.

After dinner:

Its almost 3, I need to get the stuff done for the note to send to people.. I have the crystal, I know what to do.. but I need to write it all up. Saturday at 7 comes real fucking early. Getting car ready.

I almost have everything done for the ritual for my sick friend, except the write up. That will be a tomorrow morning.

Morning: Lesser Banishing ritual of the Pentagram. Nothing Surprising there... Need a little time to practice the hammer rite.

Lunch: had a meeting

Later at night: Painting the Chango Pwen.

While I was doing that a Neoscona crucifera spider came out right by me. More spiders... all the time now.

The subject is the reframe of a song.

DJ S4R1N (Deus Ex Machina) - Dark Club Experience Vol.1

That's the song on the internet radio. Appropriate and the universe is certainly laughing with me.

Morning: Nada

Afternoon:

Its clearly no secret that I have been doing Saturn Work. People have been telling me a lot lately, that I cant really say some things I want to because it will offend people, possibly hurting book says. I am going to turn this raw diary entry into a article and I want to say for the record, I do not care if offend people because sometimes thats a good thing. This probably will be extremely raw, and needs to be redone. I should be out riding my bike instead of writing, but I fell like writing.