The last few days have been wierd

Saturday =>  Adrian for Ostara, with the quarter calls.

Sunday => in Park with kids, driving, didnt get home till 2 am

Monday=>  At Claudaughs for a talk on Vodou, this went very well.

Although there was a pagan there, who of course, had to ask the question of if fate is punishing Vodou.  I hate that, your at a pagan meetup, and your going to play

I responded by saying that both Haiti and New Orleans were man made disasters probagated by a racist global agenda.  New Orleans particularly,  Katrina didnt kill the city.  3 hours after the storm. the city was mostly fine, then the levee's break.  Levy's that engineers down there said for 10 years needed to be fixed and the federal goverement refused. Haiti, is a classic study of how the international countries can continuously fuck a small country and milk it for resources for 200+ years.  Of course, Earth quake hits, and its already poor... so they make the buildings however they can.  Add to that corupt leaders... = massive loss of life.  Many Houngans and Mambos predicted something would happen, but they dont even have a word in Kreoyle for earthquake ( hard to predict something  you dont even have a word for).  When pagans start saying what Robison says, SHAME ON YOU.. SHAME SHAME SHAME ShaME SHAME SHAME SHAME SHAME SHAME.  AKA our gods did tell us, we just didnt understand nor as there much you could do about it.

When pagans who are white say this, I say... SHAME on you, you are not being the devil's advocate, nor are you cute, clever, or even astute, you are in fact part of the problem of a Christian based racism.  People do not say that about other places with ohter religions that have tragedies like buddhism.  If you feel that fate punishes a religion, go back to Christianity, its much closer to that belief.  Again SHAME ON YOU.  Time to look in that mirror really, and ask yourself how much of the culture you life in you really believe.  Cause its more then you think.

Tried to record a video for The Next Top Spiritual Author.   Had to invoke Ra a couple times.   Turns out video, I dont like doing self-talk videos as much as in person conversations.  Its just too self-reflective and I pause a little to often.  The intensity is there, but not the fluidity.  This is something that along with singing and voice training, I really need a coach on.    I took this as a mercurial problem ( as in I need to invoke the Mercurial Intelligence to move thinking faster), I tend to think about what I am saying, it comes off intense, but I have a very measured tone not a conversational one on Video.  This is I think because I am a little to self-consious around the camera.  Its why I have hestitated to do youtube or other training videos that do not involve other people.  Finding a voice coach, and then a video coach, check on the list

Lunch:  Again going to take  a longer walk with inner smile and Condenseing breathing.  3 miles.  40 minutes

Doing a  LBRP with a corresponding Microcosmic orbit.

Tonight I have Tai Chi and Gigong, but then will be at Stauph's after 8... to write.