Saturday, I was doing private Vodou work on the points of Legba and Ogun. It was very energizing, but I was a little to manic after Saturday's ritual that I could not get to sleep on Saturday night. So of course, sleep to little and am tired. I had wanted to do a solar working to facilitate and lead toward changing some aspects of my own personality. Some friends kinda blew me off, so that kinda reasserted my continuing desire to do mostly solitary magical work for right now. Its not that I am angry, just have some things I need to get done, and do not want to rely on timing issues with others. The continuing hickups with doing the solar work, suggests to me that this is a slightly more complicated internal issue I am trying to change and slightly more connected to the physical world. Remember, the internal microcosm is a mirror of the external world, so taking that when people cancel out an external working, I assume its reflective of internal issues. Part of the issue, is that I am in a crossroads. Well always at crossroads... but many of the people I magically worked with in the past, well to be blunt, I probably wont see them much. That's ths Solar work, attracting and vibrating differently so that the people around me are more in the spirit and direction I need them to be for the greatest level of mutual gain. In some cases, this has already happened, in others well threads of the past continue to reveal that which is dead already in my life.

Time to take a different approach. I will personify my resistance to doing the Ra and solar work, and have a chat to understand more then I already know about the internal issues prevent and working against the transformations. Some of this, I know is just fatique ( not feeling like the great shining one). Some maybe there is more to, that I have to know about from myself. The process of personification is in detail explained in Hands on Chaos Magic.

Sunday, Nada, see the manic, oh look its 4:30 am, and I am playing a stupid little repetitive game. Although Droid + Honda 2010 Civic EX + StreamBurner PRo + Cellular Internet + Shoutcast = Pleasant drive indeed.