Usually I don’t like posting multi-day stuff, BUT I am going to this time cause all these are related.
I went through friday the 13th and wholly shit…. the next three days became a blur. I mean some old-school crazy shit happened. Friday was bad enough that I went in and did Shiva work in addition to the Ganesh work. It was not like oh shit everything is fucked, but I got very little sleep and had some minor bad luck. But when your doing 30 days of constant 2 magical rituals a day, while doing an MBA, with work stress etc, it becomes paper-cuts.
Saturday I did some MAJOR work in addition to the Dantalion work for a friend who is suffering a pretty blatant racism that could end her career. For people who don’t know, I used to be a SHARP ( skinhead against racial predudice). Ok I never really shaved my head all the way, but did get in some scraps. Even though I was using negative forces, I was clearly doing so in line with Justice. I felt compelled to help and when you are working on this Grace element, and accepting it, that means when you feel compelled, you should do things. This was a fucking crazy ritual. Huge fire outside, and the minute I asked for a sign of the spirit, shit started raining and the wind kicked up. The problem, it was 35 F which sucked. But I hammered at that ritual and the people involved were like Jesus man ( they can speak for themselves on this one if they choose), jesus christ that was fucked up in the magnificent way. BTW, that one already got results in some ways already.
Then Sunday there was a huge setback with the work we are working on, and then there wasn’t. Literally the set back undid itself in a day. This was fucking really strange and there was a ton of exceptions and strangeness to even make the situation dissolve. Literally people had to over-ride standard procedures. Enough so that I was like WTF and had to rely on people I know to do some divination work with me. It happened then just undid it self. It was leaning toward a major incident ( there was some money costs), and then it just dissolved. I for the life of me could not figure out the reason, the why, or the meaning. I could have understood it if lasted longer, but really I couldn’t do it. At the same time, I went so hard on the Dantalion work that I damn near lost consciousness. Essentially what I did, was take a deep seated death impulse in a person, and loop it in the cognitive structures so it wasn’t self-empowering, but self-destroying as far as energy goes. Give death itself, a wonderful energy Ouroboros-like deep negative thought pattern killer. It takes some real hard work and cleverness to do this one, but thats why Dantalion I think is an underrated spirit. Capsizing ships is cool, but changing the thoughts of another… that’s power in our world.
Needless to say the incident screwed things up, and then I had to adjust on Monday, by you guessed it… DOING more magical work to keep other parts of the greater project. So I was working with my Skull Pwen that I worked with on the last challenge, to remove negativity as the readings came out that this was all needed, but the parts of the work that muffle magical energies, is different for this part of the work. So I had to have two different kinda of muffles. In general, by Monday night, I am staying up to 4 am just playing the stupid video game same with Tuesday. This is just magical burnout and me trying to heal shit up, but the work on the #domagick, well unbroken, and we are GETTING results. Then Monday is also FEED Legba day so… fuck just fuck fuck.
By Tuesday, the Dantalion be like.. just authorize us to work on it, we got this, you’ve fed us well. I got my offering, I am on this ( sure enough the next day, big time positive blip with the person we are working to heal). We got this Man,.. Apparently you do.
Mind you, I still have finals and work ( but I am keeping up sorta, this weekend will be catch up). So it usually takes me a couple days to figure things out on the gnostic burn phase. The thing is this is not work I can really take a pause from. The stakes are little to high and in some ways, shit is working just in a crazy unpredictable way. All the days felt like a blur. 2 hours of ritual ( more like 5 out in the rain on Saturday), and a weird just crazy.
Did I mention too, I am moving my home office. Yeah After doing some Ganesh work on Tuesday, that kinda finally settled in that right after finals, I have to move a bunch of stuff…. including some wards. Oops, no rest for the wicked.